Down Into the Stars
For longer than I have not
I tread this path bearing your scars
The only gift you haven't bought
You have taught me forgiveness
By darkening your soul
You have taught me love
By only showing me control
You may raise a fist
But it is I that rise
I may lay under your foot
But I won't be compromised
Cease to exist
Breathe not
You have served your purpose here
And I release you
Never leave
Stay forever
You are the only one who knows me
For you created me
Say you love me
So I can label your words a lie
Fight this battle
I'd hate missing you if you die
Torture me
Teach me the hatred I've forgotten
Lie to me
I can smell your heart has rotten
You were always the one to order
But now I demand you live
I hate myself for caring
And now I must forgive
You turn me around and around and around
Push me until I fall down and down
Until I have to sort the light from the dark
For if I swim in the wrong direction
I drown
With you
I find resentment in love
I find hope in your darkness
I stare down into the stars
And plant my feet above
My belief in love
My belief in good
You taught me more
Than the black wood
You taught me more
Than the dogwood
But now you've taught me
All that you should
It's time to listen
So hold your breath
Find truth in your lies
Before you find it in death
10/5/21